What it's like...

People always ask me what its like when I retreat. When I go away. This is how I feel. I don't want to talk to anyone. I don't want to do anything. I want to be Comfortably Numb. But people tell me I have to perk up. Get ready for the "Show"... I guess the "Show" could be me being out in public. Or any interaction with those that don't know me. What's scary is when I realize that my parents don't understand me. They don't know me at all. They just smile, nod, and shrug their shoulders when it comes to what I do with my life, while criticizing it the entire time.